Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Thoughts

It's really happening. We are traveling to Ukraine to meet A and P. It happened all so quickly.

Deep breath. One minute I am on cloud nine and the next I am am stressing over this and that.

Remember Christine-- God is in control. You are not.

Deep breath. I think this trip is going to be longer than our others. We are leaving on the 14th and John and Caleb have return dates of July 2nd. And that's if all goes according to plan. So far it has. And it would be amazing if things continued to go just as planned-- but is there such a thing as the "perfect according to plan" adoption?

If there is, I haven't heard of them.

I have been going through and getting rid of so much stuff--- I can't believe what a pack rat I am. Nesting.

Every now and then I see A and P's beautiful faces I can't help but wonder if they have a clue.

Since they are older, so many thoughts race through my mind.

Will they like us?
Will they say yes?
Will they get along with our other children?
Will they like the things we brought?
Are they expecting more than we can give them?

In my heart of hearts, I trust that everything will be okay, but the thoughts run through my mind nonetheless. Oh, it will be amazing to go back.

7 comments:

Annie said...

And - I can see why you might expect difficulties there because I've NEVER heard of anything going so smotthly on this end!

Annie said...

Well, my biggest fear would be that their first few yeaars of life dealt them traumas that they will have a hard time overcoming. Other than that, my feeling is the everything else is manageable. Though I have heard of children saying "no"; it is rare because those working with them realize that they don't want to be adopted and don't make everyone do all that work for nothing!

Every adoption (and birth) I had panic feelings - "What have I done!?" But I assured myself that I tried to follow God's leading and I believe if we do that He won't give us more than we can handle.

Kathy C. said...

What an exciting journey!

laurietw said...

How exciting for you. Yes, it is fast now, but all worth and in His hands! Prayers your way, Laurie

Tina in CT said...

The most wonderful thing that you will be bringing and giving them is welcoming them into your family and love.

Rachel said...

Praying for you, Christine.

Chelsea said...

I didn't realize you were adopting two children this time. Awesome :).